Thursday, September 30, 2004
i hate this.
failed my physics test by 1 freaking mark.
oh _.. sorry, pls excuse me..
wait, no.. dont excuse me.. this is me..
i dont just fail things like tt.. y now? n y physics?
mr wee, i need u.. come back from aust, pls?? n y is everyone there anw?!
ugh!!
screw it...
thanks for nothing - sum 41
I'll never take part in the growing population
Or waste my time with further education
Forget what we know
It's just a big show
What they want to control
So jaded, frustrated
Its all so complicated
Fashion, no passion surrounds me
All I know is
I've heard this all before
Reality's a bore
You ask me to believe in something fake
Well I can't bring myself to
Do what you want me to
This is who we are and
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change
I can't take part in the businessman illusion
I'll take my chance in the real world confusion
Don't blame us
Who do we trust
When they're so dishonest?
No patience, this nation's obsessed with exploitation
Lying, denying surrounds me
All I know is
I've heard this all before
Reality's a bore
You ask me to believe in something fake
Well I can't bring myself to
Do what you want me to
This is who we are and
Nothing's gonna change
Don't think you can ignore us
Don't tell me that we're to blame
Don't pick our future for us
Or act like we're the same
All I know is
I've heard this all before
Reality's a bore
You ask me to believe in something fake
Well I can't bring myself to
Do what you want me to
This is who we are and
Nothing's gonna change
(Thanks for nothing)
i like sum41 cos they tell it just as it is.. heh.
they coming down next wed to hardrock cafe.. n i wanna go!!
but fri's alr social night.. n being a blardy dumb engineering student, i cant carry on my playing n partying anymore.. so yea, no sum41 for me.. ugh. _ing hate this..
/* this post has been edited to omit vulgarities. thanks kelv n shawn for making me think abt what i was doing.. yeah.. */
i cant say "thank you" enough.. :)
esp to ben n wm for staying up till so late to help me w sch.. n wm for waking up so early for me.. *grinz* thanks! not tt i could do today's lab 2 part 2 anw.. (was totally depressing but aft complaining w akshata n sanskiti, realised i'm not alone.. phew!) but thanks u guys, at least for letting me know i can always count on u all for help.. n tt includes joan, emmanuel, lg, jr, sh too.. hmm.. thanks really..
n to e precious gems tt keep encouraging me all e way.. those from nj, tk, cmc etc.. impossible to name everyone here but just wanna let u know tt i'm truly blessed to have found u all..
"friends r angels sent down from heaven to take care of us" (hope i got e quote right, haha..) nice stuff..
Monday, September 27, 2004
in this diary - the ataris
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
yeap, best days if only tests never existed..
ugh. programming all week!!
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Thursday, September 23, 2004
hold on - good charlotte
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
Sunday, September 19, 2004
m feeling surprisingly perky today.. haha.. considering i slept for just 5 hours, got caught in e rain while jogging this am, n got to drive quite a bit.. (it's quite tiring i realised.. hmm..)
but really yeah.. i'm starting to make sense of things.. while rants help me let off steam n frustration, its impt to realise tt everything is in place for a reason, yea? like how i cant utd how they can put our mid sem exams (not tests exactly cos they acct for 20%) during our mid sem break.. but guess it's a gd pusher to get us all to study.. right? been doing my own thing for wayyy too long.. haha, so guess it's a gd reality check.. tt i m afterall a stdt, n so yeah.. crazy schedules n everything r pretty much part n parcel.. hmm.. i dont know la, m just trying v hard to convince myself tt sch doesnt really stink tt bad.. all abt mindsets yea? so yeap.. haha, in liangguang's words, gambate!
n one thing tt's been bugging me for quite a bit since last night.. what exactly r my priorities?? hmm.. didnt think abt it much till then n when i did.. just struck me.. tt i haf not been putting God before everything.. yeah sure, priorities will be stuff like family, tt special someone, dreams, friendships etc.. but to think abt it, all these r given to us by God.. He has e power to take these all away.. n i'm just glad tt He's chosen instead to bless me w these.. so well yeah, He shld be e 1st n foremost priority.. m saying this cos i've failed in this.. becoming more of a sunday-christian than anything else.. n it really sux.. hopefully this post will serve as a reminder for me.. hmm.. then again calv said smth tt even if everything were to be taken away, e grace of God is sufficient.. n tt He will nvr put us in a situation tougher than we can handle.. but well yeah, guess tt's really another big issue altogether.. right now, it's all abt proper prioritising..
hmm.. :)
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
so unfair!!!
this guy won a lunch date w kimi on power98... n he doesnt even know e date when kimi's coming to sg, or how kimi started out his career!! unfair unfair... (yo, m sure u'll agree w me on this... hmpf)
Monday, September 13, 2004
haha.. talk abt being a hopeless romantic.. luv u lots ryan! :)
n yeah.. i'm bored now.. hmm..
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Saturday, September 11, 2004
wkend's finally here!! haha.. had a gd 2nd half of e wk.. toon helped me fix my guitar! yay~ :) k, so i still cant play.. but at least there's smth else to do when i'm bored.. hmm.. fabian's been practicising so hard, he's so much better than me now! so hafta catch up.. hmmm........
was fuming's bday yest! (eeew.. so old alr.. haha, kidding) went swensens.. was just plain hilarious when we all found out tt fuming n caiqun r long lost relatives! haha.. talk abt coincidences..
anw... i haf my real estate law mid sem test on mon n not started reading yet! ahh.. but no mood to study now.. feeling slack.. hmmm... how how?!
nvm.. tmr will be a better study day.. today's a gd slacking day.. :)
ohoh, did i mention i luv saturday aft cartoons? haha.. n go check out toonslyvania on kids central 1pm.. e ultimate destress show.. :)
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
nevermind the fact i went in for ee tutorial seeing e qns for e 1st time..
nevermind tt ee tutorial ended late n i was half an hr late for programming lab (which is counted for marks. big thanks to mr chia for e lift n to joan for saving a seat for me)
nevermind too tt i couldnt finish e lab cos i had to leave early to travel back to engin block for my other lab
nevermind tt e lab dragged, lasting a nice 4 hours
or that i had class from 10-12 in engin block, 12-2 in sci block, 2-6 in engin block
nevermind that i didnt get to eat all day
n well yeah, nevermind tt im as messed up as ever...
I STILL SURVIVED
yay.
this is pathetic.
notice board tmr. one corner's missing. n i wonder y. me screwed up.
luv this song.. God is good, all e time.. just hafta keep tt in mind no matter what smelly stuff happen i guess.. hang in there too, everyone..
evermore - hillsongs united
Lost for words with all to say
Lord you take my breath away
Still my soul, my soul cries out
For you are holy
And as I look upon your name
Circumstances fade away
Now your glory steals my heart
You are holy
You are holy Lord
Evermore my heart, my heart will say
Above all, I live for your glory
Even if my world falls I will say
Above all, I live for your glory
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
beeeeeg thanks to liangguang for helping me w programming...
dying. freaking dying..
ryan, :( n it's only tuesday!! *wails*
n did any of u see e front page of yest's streats? abt e russian hostage crisis, w e pic of a distraught father? sigh. a picture can really speak a thousand words... bloody carnage. what's happening man..
n y do ppl change? sigh.. hate seeing an old friend lose grip.. disappointment..
i hope i survive this wk properly.
*keeping fingers crossed*
ah screw it.. i give up... sound e bell n bring it on yeah.. i'll just try to look for my boxing gloves..
Monday, September 06, 2004
LoOooooooPs?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
from my programming tutor's site.. how i wish it was this easy for me..
Saturday, September 04, 2004
"guard ur heart, protect ur body.
both men n women, preserve ur culture" - some sign in bangkok..
pretty interesting, dont u think?
ohohoh! n mr dio's in e papers again! haha.. funky teacher..
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
i luv tuesdays now! our "destress" day..
haha.. played badminton w grp c + junrong n lionel..
was more hilarious than anything la.. emmanuel thinking (see, i'm stressing tt word) that i'm "scared" of e shuttlecock.. i'm not la.. just that.. ah nvm.. :)
n joan getting "shot" in e head..
funny stuff really..
too bad fen n weimin couldnt make it.. hmm.. next tues!!
oh.. n i'm dying for real estate law.. spent 2 hrs in e law lib searching thru e parliamentary debates! wtf..
n my mentor left for aust again today.. :(