Tuesday, June 29, 2004
i like blackouts.
things like tt force us to stop what we r doing, to focus on smth else. takes our, or mine at least, minds away from things we all get too caught up in. tiny stuff that dont really matter. haha, but of cos it'll be a whole diff story if i was bathing or smth n suddenly cant see where e freaking tap is, w soap all over me.. but u get e picture..
was quite cool just now cos was on my way back from east coast park, n suddenly everything went lights-out.. east coast rd, eunos.. super scary cos there were no lights ard adam rd area on e PIE itself! haha, crazy stuff.. thank gdness my mum took over e car.. haha, but was fun.. :)
anw u must be thinking i'm like crazy or smth.. west side person going all e way to e east.. haha, was like *dragged* out in e aft by kf, yc, ko, ak cos overslpt for this am's badminton game.. then headed down to e beach to jog w mum while waiting for dad.. spent quite long just sitting ard on e sand, near e water's edge, all by myself.. really nice stuff, haha, at diff beaches for 2 nights in a row..
i like e beach. at night esp.. (soo hafta move back to e coast area somewhere.. then again sg's like how small.. oh well..) look out at e sea, e bright lights from e ships, then at e night-sky, with e huge moon n stars.. (luv stars.. haha, it's been there since like this blog started but if u havent yet noticed, check out e link on e right frame, abt stars... realised i digress a lot. hmpf. nvm) but well yeah.. looking at things like tt makes me feel small, miniscule, insignificant.
then there's e sound of waves breaking ashore. it's kinda like e things tt happen in life i think, each wave has it's own timing, rhythm. one breaks ashore n retreats, n then another wave comes.. but sometimes things gets screwed up n e wave breaking n tt retreating kinda collide heads-on, n things gets messed up a bit, there's loud noise n foam everywhere, but aft a while things return to nomalcy.. n e cycle continues..
it's also quite interesting cos i like looking at e sea, being at e water's edge, but at e same time i'm like scared of e unknown tt's beneath e surface.. so timid right?
then there's e cool breeze blowing from e sea.. (hmm so it's supposed to be land breeze at night right? but kinda figured tt there's a more complex system of currents n stuff, as in, e weather system w e water bodies at e equator n at e poles affecting currents n jet streams n other stuff. i think.) but it's like hmm.. gets chilly aft a while, n u either turn ard n run away from there to get warmth, or u stay n tough it out.. cos aft a while, ur body gets used to e temp n adjusts.. then u get to spend a bit more time admiring e stars n all.. haha, of cos thot of a whole lot more things but then since this kinda blog-post nakedness of thoughts scares me, shall shut my trap here..
hmm.. realised tt it takes a whole lot of effort to either think of deep, probing stuff, or to think of nth at all.. since most of e time my mind's like cluttered with things tt really dont seem to matter at all.. haha, u prolly might haf no idea what i'm rambling abt.. (yeap, rubbish again, haha..) hmm, okay, it's kinda like a radio. takes quite a bit of effort to get a clear, clean reception n stuff, n it's like impossible to get no-sound at all unless e radio's switched off, but e stuff's filled w interference sounds all over.. white noise.. rubbish noise.. just like our minds.. oh well.. haha.. so rubbish..
being at e beach, on a wk night or where there's not many ppl ard, helps me think i guess.. haha, cool stuff.. luv e beach, e stars, e night, e sea.. anw think i'm not making sense again today.. i'll post smth proper soon.. haha, cyn's coming ovr tmr, gotta go neaten up room a lil.. cheerios.. :)
Saturday, June 26, 2004
Friday, June 25, 2004
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
hold on for one more day - wilson phillips
Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things'll go your way
holding on.. :)
Saturday, June 19, 2004
i haf stumbled upon an all important discovery..
*cue drumroll*
no. 7 is officially a potential soccer hottie no!
haha.. sorry to sound absolutely bimbotic.. but dont u like, agree???
esp for euro2004...
like for
england, beckham (also no 7 for man u)
sweden, nilsson
spain, raul (almost as cute as pires)
haha.. n of cos.. france, robert pires!! :)
(all pictures taken from www.euro2004.com)
haha.. sheesh.. anw.. i passed my drvg! so happy.. haha.. maybe tt's y i'm rambling nonsense.. haha.. :)
Friday, June 18, 2004
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
it's funny how things suddenly seem so.. weird.
dont get it.
some things i wish didnt exactly happen to me but they do, n m left w important, even critical chioces to make.. n i get lost halfway along e decision making process..
some things i wish did happen to me.. and well.. but i guess those i cant really say cos those r half chance cases..
talk abt brown's law (i refuse to call it murphy's law cos well, it's isaac newton n newton's law; albert einstein and einstein's special theory of relativity; michael faraday and faraday's laws.. but then again there could be another guy w surname brown who has his own brown's law but i've not come across it so till then i'll be a stubborn idiot n call it brown's law.. so there.. )
but.. back to e issue of things i wish didnt exactly happen to me (well, in retrospect at least).. the options wont exactly be half chances or whatever.. cos well.. the choice-factors r weighted, in a way.. arent they? but however do u weigh things like tt?? i dont know.. oh crap.... i'm talking nonsense..
need to go downstairs n bum again..
Friday, June 11, 2004
heya!!! i'm back! been really busy e past few days so didnt really haf a chance to blog.. haha, but to those who called to check if i was still alive, (esp to e one tt came from across e causeway) thanks for ur concern.. m surviving still i guess, thank gdness.. :)
anw.. so many things happened today! firstly, ruperto left for kl today... so sad i couldnt be at e airport to send him off cos of my interview.. (final stage of stuff but i'm not even sure if i want it really, gerard's also not sure.. n it's like a 25% chance for things cos think there's only e 4 of us left right? ugh... how how??) but glad tt at least spent quite a while having coffee w him yest n met up w him this am outside his place.. sigh.. if ya reading this, i'll miss ya lots.. chris ong couldnt haf put it better, he's like e bro i nvr had.. taught me so much.. haha, n it's funny how i didnt even know him b4 he was camp commandent n i asst camp co for t retreat.. n how he had to pester me to get msn.. n how he stayed up till 3.30+am e 1st night of camp to teach me how to play e guitar properly.. haha, oh well.. just wish i really did haf an older bro.. but i wont take being e only child for granted tho.. haha, has it's perks too.. *grinz* oh well..
anw.. didnt blog for tt long cos t-retreat happened last wkend! my 1st camp ever n was kinda thrown in e deep end to help plan for it.. so yea, a major eye-opener.. feels a bit funny when ppl were saying tt they felt more spiritually sensitive to God's calling for em after that cos i didnt exactly feel e same way, at least not in e same channelkinda thing as they did.. (chris, we prolly r feeling e same stuff) talked to ruperto abt this n i guess what he said's really true.. for e campers, they could and were simply focused on e topic of discipleship n missions, whereas us backgrd ppl (ie e organising comm. ppl) knew abt this topic v early on n so when e topics were discussed it was more of an "okay.. so this is it" kinda thing, while for e campers it was more of an compact n injected shot of e topics.. i've experience God thru this all definitely, just in a diff way.. like how to place greater faith in Him tt He'll see us thru,n things tt r in accordance to His will.. (just like how e biggest group of campers ever for t retreat turned up; how chris managed to get his leave in e end; how He never forsakes His children; how e speaker sessions all just somehow tied in together so neatly; how i even managed to not screw up for smth this big tt i haf absolutely no experience in n soo many other stuff) n haf learnt tt everything e comm. does is indeed purely structural, administrative only.. and that only God can touch n change lives.. like He did when ppl made e commitment thingy for e last speaker session.. so yeah.. chris, if ya reading this, i guess this is why n how e organisers feel differently as compared to e other campers.. haha, but pretty cool stuff ya? :)
t retreat had loads of fun aspects as well.. couldnt/didnt slp thruout e entire camp cos 1st night i was simply scared of some stuff (what lil faith i haf ya? trying to correct tt bit by bit i guess) n 2nd night cos e bunch of em gave me those weird illogical teasers thingy tt i couldnt solve! haha.. tt n playing games where i had to eat n drink stuff as forfeit.. went to e pc show aft camp w pearly ryan n fabian n was trying soo hard to stay sober n to keep my balance w e crazy crowd surrounding us.. haha.. oh well.. cant wait till e next camp.. hopefully this time as a camper so tt i'll be able to see things from both sides.. *hint hint to lyd if ya reading this.. dont arrow me again for a while k?* :)
n here's a beEeeeeEeeeegggg thank you (on behalf of pert. too) to everyone for being such a cool team, n e rest for helping out.. chris, jesh, paul, shawn, alvin, ryan, glenn, our dearest advisors june, lyd, uncle mark.. n one of e most impt ones who brought this all together, kf! *ting tong!!* thanks to e gls, agls... as well as to e campers.. n absolutely e most(-est) impt(-est) thing is to thank God tt everything worked out in e end.. haha.. debrief session soon peepz!
ohohoh.. n ah briel (n fabian) lent me his gnr live era '87 - '93 double cds! haha.. how cool i tell u.. nov rain seriously is soo cool, esp w e live extended intro piano solo part.. anw m sooo happy cos paul's guitar's gonna be officially mine in like 3 days!! haha.. i'm playing it every morning now.. still reading chris yeoh's [idiot's guide to playing e guitar].. haha, hmpf.. i wonder if tt seriously meant smth.. oh well.. haha, guess i'll be meeting him n andrew tmr for lunch n we'll see..
but guess to say tt everything went well since i last blogged would kinda be a lie.. sigh. let a dear friend down quite badly i guess.. n m really sorry.. but think tt some things just cant be helped.. n yea, takes 2 hands to clap n all.. just feeling slightly rotten as a person now.. but guess things will always work out alright in e end somehow.. :)
so yeap.. just to reaffirm u all.. m still v much alive n well i guess.. :) i'll blog again soon.. ciaoz!
ps. kimi's sooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute in e latest ad!! haha.. n cant wait till euro2004 starts.. haha.. get to see more of pires!! :) [bkmark this webby n mark this date down peepz.. 14th june.. so exciting!!!]